​I recall asking an art tutor

on my Fine Art degree course,

"How do I paint pure consciousness?"

to which he replied,

"Become pure consciousness, then paint".

I'd also like to add that painting or any other creative activity can support realising one's deepest nature.

Discovering how to do this

became my creative koan. 

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Childhood

Growing up in Hove, UK in a dysfunctional family and trying to make sense of traumatic childhood experiences led to questioning the meaning of life, undergoing psychotherapy, art therapy and embarking on an inner quest exploring meaning, self and identity.

 

​Discovering the Power of Art

As a young adult curious about the mind and the Meaning of Life, I worked as a nursing assistant in a psychiatric hospital, where I was invited to participate in an inspiring six-month staff art therapy group.

 

I found this an eye and mind-opening experience. Discovering the vast possibilities of expressing and exploring my mind through art led me to practise as a committed artist.

 

Contemplating Mark Rothko's paintings at the Tate Modern and listening to Mahler's Resurrection Symphony conducted by Simon Rattle further opened my mind to how the arts can reach beyond purely visual and aesthetic dimensions to be powerful, transforming, healing, revealing, and spiritually awakening experiences.

 

I found creative art practice to be an inspiring way to express both the suffering human condition and also point to deeply felt innate, timeless, universal essence. 

 

Art and the Timeless 

My husband’s suicide in 1981 led me to question all my social conditioning, catapulting me into a search for deep meaning and purpose. 

 

I embarked on a spiritual search, studying Christian Essene spiritual healing with the College of Spiritual Psychotherapy and Kabbalah with a rabbi’s wife. Interest in the perennial philosophy led me to look east, study Hindu and Vedic teachings and travel to India, before arriving in 1991 at Tibetan Buddhism, which felt like home.

 

Wanting to explore art, psychology and spirituality, I embarked on a BA Hons degree in Painting (1987-1991) at the then Brighton College of Art. I began studying Hindu and Tibetan mandala painting, the work of Agnes Martin, Jackson Pollock and Richard Pousette-Dart, Paul Klee and Kandinsky and travelled to India to research Indian women artists and miniature painting.  

 

My art work became increasingly abstract as I searched for ways to make visible my experience of things beyond superficial physical appearance that felt authentic for me. In 1991 I wrote a dissertation, ‘The Symbolism of the Center in Religion and Sacred Art’, investigating the relationship between sacred art and the perennial spiritual teachings.

 

In the midst of all this I discovered the joys and challenges of parenthood with the birth of my son Jacob in 1990, following fervent prayers for something that would help me destroy my ego. 

 

Discovering Mindful Awareness Meditation and Art

In addition to exhibiting and practising as an artist, in 1995 I began a more committed meditation and mindfulness practice. I was so grateful to receive teachings from authentic, realized, spiritual masters including Ato Rinpoche and Khenpo Tsultrim Gyamtso Rinpoche.

 

In 2005 I discovered my main teacher, Mingyur Rinpoche, a Tibetan Buddhist teacher holding lineages for Mahamudra and Dzogchen, which include shamatha and vipashyana meditation.

 

These lineages offered me progressive training in the path to enlightenment that particularly suited my mind and turned out to be life changing as well as deeply informing my art practice.

 

Integrating Art and Meditation

Following a period studying traditional Tibetan Thangkha Painting, I increasingly felt drawn to investigate ways of integrating meditation with more modern, contemporary fine art practices. This led me to study for a Masters Degree in Fine Art (2005-2007). For my examination exhibition in 2007 I created a short video, 'Letter to My Mum' in response to my mother asking why I wanted to ordain as a Buddhist nun.

 

A week after my MA show closed, I was ordained as a Buddhist nun in Oxford UK by His Eminence Thrangu Rinpoche.  I remained a nun for seven years, living in semi-retreat in my house in Suffolk UK.

 

In 2014 I was increasingly feeling that while being a nun had been extremely beneficial for myself and hopefully others, I needed to be more naked and integrate ongoing meditation practice with creative practice, teaching art and everyday life as a lay person, for both my own and other people’s benefit.​

 

Since 2007 I have been evolving the series of projects shown on this website, integrating art with the meditation practices given to me by Mingyur Rinpoche, along with teaching art and mindful creativity mentoring.

 

While personally informed by meditation and mindfulness, all my work is presented in a secular way relevant for people on any spiritual path or none.

 

This year I'm also on an intensive Meditation Teacher Training Program with Tergar, directed by Mingyur Rinpoche

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I have received awards for my Mindful Creativity project from Arts Council England and the Marianne Oberg Foundation for Spiritual Art, been an invited speaker on art and spirituality on Channel 4 TV and at conferences and been awarded scholarships for studying meditation and art in the US. My work is in private and public collections in Europe and the US.

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